Jul 4the love that you aren’t given (and probably deserve)It’s been, what, two months since I touched this? I’ve actually been thinking about writing one every so often, then forget by the time I come home. I don’t like that idea actually — i like having this as this waterfall of words that don’t really make sense. I like…Rant8 min read
May 6i am not healthy for myselfI’ve been tired recently. I think I started my last post with that as well. Maybe it’s just permanent exhaustion on my end. It might just be exams — which I’m not studying for — or just talking to people. The past few conversations I’ve had have been draining. …Rant7 min read
Apr 28to: kyousei/shuuya/all the unnamedwell. i suppose there’s no going around it. it’s bittersweet, of course, I’m not going to tell you that it’s going to be all sunshine and rainbows. I also am not here to convince you. You’ve made it fully well what your intentions are and your reasons behind them. …7 min read
Apr 26weight on the huskexhaustion isn’t fun. I’ve been tired all day, and I’ve accomplished things, yet I don’t feel rewarded. I barely done the work I was suppose to, so do I even deserve it? Regardless, I’ve been thinking about relationship dynamics and imposter syndrome recently. I don’t think I’m physically able to…Rant5 min read
Apr 23loneliness but i’m not actually alone and i’m just overthinking itin addition to the ideas of finals today, I think the thing that affects me most are the relationships that are going to be broken. Once again, i could care less about the school. but the people? I’m going to miss some of them, because we won’t ever talk. But…Rant6 min read
Apr 22romanticized memoirs of schoolI hate school with every fiber of my being. I simply hate the teachers, the knowledge, the way it teaches, the harsh grading system, the people who think they know better than anybody, the memorization, the stress, the burnout, the lack of sleep. …Rant4 min read
Mar 20unlovelike this one tiktok I saw, i simply do not think I am loveable. It’s not in that way where I am simply not someone you love. i was talking to him yesterday, on the way back from taiyaki. “the cheery girls aren’t the ones that win.” …5 min read
Mar 16i like being nice outwardly but only to strangers i guesstoday i was productive. not productive. maybe useful. I woke up at 8:30, got some stuff i’ve been meaning to get forever at Walmart, then headed to starbucks, got some coffee and my scholarship done, then walked around with a friend. it was fun. yet on the way there, there…Rant6 min read
Aug 18, 2021Dystopian UtopiaI most definitely have it better than other people. I live in a nice home, with loving parents, who can virtually give me anything I’d want. Of course, they don’t always say yes, but it’s not hard to get anything I wanted, if I really wanted it. I have friends…Rant5 min read
May 19, 2021That Romanticized IdealRecently, I’ve been talking to people who I’m not really close with. They’re online friends, but the process of meeting them and getting to know them is usually the same. I end up having one solid talk with them. Like it lasts hours, and we talk about anything. Doesn’t matter…Rant4 min read
